I was in a relationship for three plus years and it was one that rocked me to my core. I loved this man with all of me and never imagined I would ever say goodbye to him. But alas it was not meant to be. He figured it out before I did, or before I was brave enough to admit it to myself, and it hurt a lot. As soon as the fog of fear lifted I realized that he was right and we were not right for each other. This did not make it less sad, just easier to accept. He quoted “Someone Like You” from Adele to me and thought that he could see me thinking this way about him, and him I guess a bit about me. I don’t know. I know that as the song says “I wish nothing but the best for you too.” As I move forward in my new single life and am shedding the skin of hurt and loss, I have found a new Adele song that is where I am at right now.

“Send My Love”

This was all you, none of it me
You put your hands all over my body and told me, umm
You told me you were ready
For the big one, for the big jump
I’d be your last love everlasting you and me
That was what you told me

I’m giving you up
I’ve forgiven it all
You set me free, oh

Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We’ve gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain’t kids no more
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We’ve gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain’t kids no more

I was too strong you were trembling
You couldn’t handle the hot heat rising (rising), umm
Baby I’m so rising
I was running, you were walking
You couldn’t keep up, you were falling down (down), umm
There’s only one way down

I’m giving you up
I’ve forgiven it all
You set me free, oh

Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We’ve both know we ain’t kids no more
Send my love to your new lover
Treat her better
We’ve gotta let go of all of our ghosts
We both know we ain’t kids no more

While yes, I know that he has said she is not his “new lover” I also know that she is not just a friend. Perhaps its not even her, but someone he has yet to meet. Regardless I do hope that he is completely honest with her and treats her better than he treated me. In my new clear thinking ways, hindsight and what not, I see just how bad he was to me at times. I understand that he did not mean to be mean and so I forgive him. I care for him deeply and hope that we can find a way to remain friends.

I am free. Thank you for being brave enough to admit it and release me.

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2 thoughts on “For the love of Adele

  1. Wow, beautifully written. Sad but hopeful. And wise! Wise sums up this perfectly. It sounds like no matter what happens, single or finding love, you will ok.

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